could i have more time today, please?

deeclarknz.comtoday was one of those days that i wished i could cram a few more hours into the day. i contemplated my list of things “to do”; laundry, floors, gardens, business emails, and paperwork.deeclarknz.com

however, the sun was shining today. that hasn’t happened very often this summer (and now autumn has begun). i imagined that long walk that i keep putting off because the weather has been crook. i also wanted to visit some of my fellow bloggers and meander through their posts. i was yearning to write as well. although, i am still learning i have found a passion ignited deep inside of me for sitting with my thoughts and then getting them down. i have women that i am sharing some of my life experiences with and so my thoughts and prayers were lingering with them as well. i needed more time today if i had any chance of getting it all accomplished.

deeclarknz.commore time in my day was not available. i decided to grab one more cup of coffee and stroll down the halls of the blogosphere. along the way, i visited miss managing. i find her photographs intriguing since i am a budding photographer (ok, i’m a wanna-be but photography and my camera make me happy). she posted a video entitled 10 reasons you should never get a job by Ralph Smart. although, his approach is so much different than mine, he made a couple of good points about working for yourself…one, when you work for yourself you are not trapped by a time clock and secondly, that you also have the freedom to form your day anyway you like.

deeclarknz.comhe had a point…it was a rather good point at that. i do not have the constraints i once had on my 9 to 5 job (cough, cough…because it was never just 9 to 5). i am blessed to have the flexibility to make this day go in any direction. deeclarknz.comi dusted off my tennis shoes because i was going to actually start that daily 3k walk that i had procrastinated for far too long. while i was at it, the camera might as well be my companion.

deeclarknz.comthe sea air hit my nostrils and it was a perfect time to take a few deep breaths. i could feel anxiety waft away with every exhale. i was ready. the first thing i noticed was the harbour was alive with boats this morning…coming in…and going out.

deeclarknz.comthe oyster boats were coming in with their catches and the ferry was heading to Stewart Island to deliver tourists.

deeclarknz.comthe birds were as happy as i was that the sun was shining…fluttering and singing away…they seemed cheerful which made me smile.

deeclarknz.comthe last of the season’s flowers were beginning to show signs that autumn was appearing but final blooms were bursting forth as if to kiss the sun a few final times.

deeclarknz.comthe horizon was not obstructed by clouds or fog today so even the distant light house was in full view.

deeclarknz.coma varied from my path for a few moments of rock time and watch the water glisten and splash…

deeclarknz.comand focused on the small plants living beneath the clear water.

deeclarknz.comand, yes, i stared at the deep blue water hoping that i might catch a glimpse of a passing whale…but not today…that dream lives on in my heart destined for another time.

deeclarknz.comi reached my turn around point and headed back home. as i walked, Marv and Ann were just arriving at their home. i planned to give a cheerful, “good’ay” (it’s the one kiwi saying i take most pleasure in attempting to copy). he spoke first, “are you a local?” “i am now”, i replied. we chattered away for several minutes and just as i thought we were completing the conversation, Marv asks, “would you like a cup of tea?” this is where i am always jolted back into the reality that i am an american in a differing culture. i always considered my family to be hospitable but when a totals stranger whom i have met only moments before invites me into their home from off the street…i never ceased to feel anything but amazement. i accepted the invitation. we shared an hour sipping a cup of tea while Marv and Ann gave me some history on Bluff (after all, Marv has lived in Bluff for 80 years) and the Mutton Bird Islands. in his younger days, Marv was an oysterman which was fascinating since my husband and i now farm oysters.

deeclarknz.comthe clam shells from Fiji in Ann’s garden sparked more conversation and Ann gave me a tour of her beautiful gardens.

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i headed back home with a song in my heart…i did a bit of reading to start my morning, i enjoyed my walk, i met new friends, i snapped a few photographs, sat on a rock listening to the waves crash in, and now i am back home putting a few of my thoughts down…

and it’s still early afternoon…

i might not need added hours in this day…

i think i’m on a pretty good roll!

i certainly hope that you are enjoying your day as well.

D

you mustn’t be afraid to dream a little bigger

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dream…dream, dream, dream…dream

dreaming is the starting point of achieving your goal.

if it never occurs to you that they can do it, you won’t try.

when you begin to dream big dreams, you begin to change the way you see yourself and your life.

you begin to do different things.

until the whole direction of your life changes for the better.

dreaming bigger dreams is the starting point.

allowing yourself to dream bigger raises your self-esteem, your self-respect and increases your self-confidence. thus increasing your happiness.

dreams and visions stimulate you to do better than you ever have before.

this is important because the gifts and skills that you were created with are more than enough to make your dreams come true.

think about how we describe a genius.

a math genius seems to effortlessly work with math figures and formulas.

a music genius plays or sings music as naturally as they breath.

what are you a genius at doing?

“who me? i’m no genius?”

really?

what do you do that seems almost second nature to you?

do you have an eye for detail, a great sense of humor, a nurturing side, the ability to focus intently, or being playful.

this is your genius. those things that come easily and profoundly, without needing to expend a lot of energy.

recognize the genius in yourself…are you a genius mother, teacher, listener, confidant, manager, organizer, or factory worker?

there are many, many who have never been called “genius” who serve in genius ways.

those “gifts” are the resources you need to make your dreams come true!

they were given to you by design.

you mustn’t be afraid to dream…

dream a little bigger.

it’s a great place to start.

do it today…get started!
D

the path fear follows

20140309-231252.jpgthe unknown
and the unpredictable…the what “if”s…maybe “i can’t”s…the different…

all strike a chord of fear deep in the heart.

this chord sings out that we are helplessness…that our dreams, our future and even our very survival is under threat.

illusive threats pierce through our hopes and frustration sets in.

frustration is enraging; igniting the fiery emotion…anger.

anger is powerful, swift and blinds the heart to reason. anger causes us to want to fight leading us to aggressive behaviours.

but anger must have fuel…it will fizzle with time…and hatred is the fuel that keeps anger burning.

i have found that hate is like cancer. if unattended, it grows deep roots within the heart crowding out love.

hatred alienates us from each other. the heart, dark with hatred, closes in on itself and is no longer capable of fully opening up to embrace love of any kind.

withdrawal from love causes suffering which takes many forms; unforgiveness, regret, discontent, resentment and apathy.

suffering places us back to the unknown, thus reverting to fear…the cycle continues.

we fear a broken heart…

when we fear having our heart broken, it’s not so much about the pain as it is the thought that if broken we can never be whole again.

the anger begins with someone who has broken our heart in the past but swiftly moves toward hatred of potential heart breakers. a closed, isolated heart suffers in loneliness…fearing it will never find it’s deepest desire again.

we fear each other…

we fear that as we observe another person’s creativity (sometimes their very “being”) that there will be no room left for who we are or what we have to give.

fear is birthed in our thoughts and we must be courageous enough to look at it head on…sometimes shaking in our boots…and render it powerless. we must strip fear of it’s power before it takes root.

fear is a lie.

truth, love and hope know no fear…

they blossom in the heart making no room for fear to reside.

Her Majesty’s Ship Wellington visits Bluff

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yesterday was anything but a normal day in Bluff.

normally, the streets are quiet with minor rumblings of tourists as they stroll along.

however, yesterday the town seemed to jump to  life.

there were cars and people every where.

Her Majesty’s New Zealand Ship Wellington was in port and extended a welcome to the area locals to come aboard for tours.

my grandfather was in the US Navy during WWII so i was interested in seeing what a NZ naval ship would be like.

so, we headed over to the port for a “bit of a nosey” as they say here.

Wellington is one of 12 in Her Majesty’s fleet.

she is one of 2 Offshore Patrol Vessels that conduct patrol and surveillance operations around NZ, the Southern Ocean and the Pacific.

“Our Navy is the guardian of New Zealand’s Maritime Domain. It is our job to ensure safe passage for New Zealand’s shipping, to safeguard our maritime environment, to protect our fisheries and other resources and to go to the aid of our neighbours in times of disaster and other need.

“We are prepared and able to go into harm’s way in combat; it is the high end of what embodies our fighting spirit and an expectation of those for whom we serve, all New Zealanders. “

-Chief of Navy Rear Admiral Jack Steer 

my grandfather, Benny Hartness, of the US Navy WWII

My grandfather, Benny Hartness, of the US Navy WWII

my afternoon with my camera

i spent the day home alone yesterday (remember i did a happy dance?).

i decided to grab my camera, take a drive and snap…snap…snap…

and i am sharing them with you today.

enjoy the photos…

maybe close your eyes imagine the smell of the sea air.

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a glimpse inside a heart of pain

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as you read my blogs, you will often hear me make the statement “look inside your heart” when attempting to empathize with what someone else is feeling or going through. i believe there are similarities deep within all of our hearts…common threads of emotions whether happiness and joy, or pain and fear.

today, i’m sharing an example of how this works.

20140306-121812.jpgsitting in a cave alone, tired and afraid, the Psalmist David writes these words. just see, if by looking inside your heart, whether or not you can understand his difficulty and relate to the essence of his pain.

he was on the verge of loosing his courage and will to fight.

this is his, “i need some help here. i’m about to loose it!” (as we would say today).

I cry out to the Lord.

I beg the Lord to help me.

I tell him my problems;

I tell him about my troubles.

I am ready to give up.

But you, Lord, know the path I am on,

and you know that my enemies have set a trap for me.

I look around,and I don’t see anyone I know.

I have no place to run.

There is no one to save me.

Lord, I cry out to you for help:

“You are my place of safety.

You are all I need in life.”

Listen to my prayer.

I am so weak.

Save me from those who are chasing me.

They are stronger than I am.

Help me escape this trap,so that I can praise your name.

Then good people will celebrate with me,

because you took care of me.

-David, psalmist

20140306-122131.jpgjust remember, when you feel like you can’t take anymore…

you’re not alone…

others know how you feel…

and

if you’d like to whisper a prayer for help…this is a great one.

D

don’t just live life…illuminate it

20140306-104140.jpggive life

everything you got

sparkle and shine

light it up.

resplendence abounding,

embellished with grace,

an offering of richness,

not just filling space.

don’t just live life…illuminate it,

i’m doing a happy dance today

one of my favorite pass times is to be home alone (I’ve said this before).

today IS one of those times!

i’m so excited!!

no commitments.

no expectations.

no cooking.

no rules…ok, there are rules…but not many:

relax

chill

refresh

have fun

(Happy dance commence)

want to join me? (wait, then i wouldn’t be home alone…sorry, next time -maybe!)
D

Time Enjoyed is Not Wasted

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my body needs good nutrition. a healthier diet keeps my body strong enough to fight off disease like breast cancer. i love sweets but following my breast cancer treatments my doctor warned against a diet high in sugar. the cancer cells thrive on sugar. who’da thunk it? i definately do not want to fight that battle again.

i’ve learned that in hardship and difficulties i become stronger in spirit. i imagine it’s like drinking one if those cleansing-green-smoothie drinks that i have to hold my nose to get it down. yeah, we know- “what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger”. some of us should be the Incredible Hulk by now, right? however, after the fact, i’m grateful for what i’ve learned in those times because the benefit is a nourished, healthy spirit. difficult days no longer turn my world completely upside down.

then there’s the soul-the emotional part of who we are. nourishing the soul, in comparison, is much more delightful. encouragement, gratitude, relaxation and doing something enjoyable nourishes the soul.

seems too easy.

feels like we should feel guilty.

it feels like wasted time.

good nutrition can feel like deprivation. hardship is, well, hard! how refreshing to know that nourishing the soul occurs by taking some time-out to just enjoy yourself.

resist the temptation to put it off…

it’s not lazy, wasted effort or time, nor is it selfish…

what it is…is necessary…

so, don’t procrastinate…make it a priority to nourish your soul everyday.

you will build well-balanced emotions.

D